Best friend is someone with whom one shares the strongest possible kind of friendship.
My definition is best friend is the one that you place them all above your friends.
That's because they are the best among all the friends isn't it?
But sometimes best friend was place at the last in certain situation that's because to some people their best friend understand them and will understand that they do things for a certain reason.
So I always try appreciating if my best friend understand me.

But I think I'm selfish and I can say that I can never understand my best friend.
Why I say so because I find that whatever I do seems to be wrong.
I seriously have no idea what I can do about it.
I'm just like that and I hope my friends accept me for who I am.
I think I can't keep in touch with people.
Just like my secondary or primary school friends.
I just can't bring myself to talk to them first, unless they started the conversation.
I don't know why I'm like that..
Although I know that I always ask my friend don't like this and don't like that.
That's because I think their behaviour and attitude will make them lose out if they are like that.
Maybe I'm just selfish in my way.

It's hard to make all friends happy.
Just like some of my friends that are in a relationship.
They have hard time making time for their gf/bf , friends and family.
When they choose their gf/bf they will neglect the friends and family.
When they choose their friends the gf/bf will be neglected.
When they choose the family both gf/bf and friends say they are mama/papa's boy/girl.
How to spend equal time with the different group?
How to juggle between them?
I believe a lot of friends is not doing great in this aspect.

I didn't know what I say have such a big impact.
But I always talk to my friends is this way.
Which I hope they have never take it in heart because they should know my character.
But some people just cannot take it.
Maybe I sound too harsh or seems like joking sometimes.
So I guess sometimes people got confused between me joking and being serious.

If in this case I'm at fault then be it. I can't be bother because by not telling how I felt is unfair to me.
I feel extremely awesome after voicing out.
I don't care about whatever outcome or consequences I will face.
I don't care! I will do it and I'm glad I did.
Don't sounds like an emo kid and make me like the culprit for doing this.
Neh neh pu pu! I don't care. :)
Don't try pushing the blame. Because I don't take such shit into my ears.
I only want everyone to face the fact.

Everyone can choose to run away from the fact, but one day you will still face the fact.
The time that we run away are usually use to prepare ourselves to face the cruelty/fact.
Or do nothing and sit there and wait for the fact to hit right onto you.
And end up crying more, getting more injuries.
So I choose to use the time to prepare myself and do it.
By doing this I might cause a big shit break up or broken friendship.
Doesn't matter to me because IT'S THE FACT !
Do or die ! Take it or leave it is everyone rights to choose.
So I don't care what is the outcome now and I'm not benefiting from anything but I just can't stand how things have been dragging on and no one is doing anything.

Those who are involved be it you cry, upset, angry, feel unfair, feel stupid it have nothing to do with me because that's your problem and definitely not my problem.
I'm not trying to push the blame, come on ! Think properly and it's still not my fault.
It's someone who doesn't cherish, someone who doesn't do anything, someone who still can't make a decision, someone who.....
Yes and this is not my fault.
Which I hope those are reading this, please don't get this overrun your emotion and affect your studies and health.
I know it hurts so much but life have ups and downs. Don't let the downs run your life.
Run your life with the ups.
Even you have little ups, you still can run your life and create more ups to overtake the downs :D
Cheer up and all the best for creating a best life you ever have :)